Mar
20
i’ve always tried not to hurt or offend he-who-must-not-be-named (bukan voldemort loh) but now i don’t care anymore. i don’t care what he’d think about me if he read this (second conditional: used in talking about unlikely situations: means i don’t think he even bother reading any of my blogs).
you gals all have your own 1st love, dont u? but how old were you when you really knew it was love? do you consider your puppy love as your 1st love? dang!! because of my previous conversation with tasya, now i really want to talk about it. (maaf tasya if u hate this topic then you mustn’t read ’cause i don’t want to remind you of that man)
it was when i was only 11 or 12. you’d think “you were only a lil girl! what did you know about love back then?!” well i thought i loved him because everyone was teasing me! now that i think about it, i’m not sure whether i loved him or not. if you say it’s only a puppy love, then why do i miss him when i see his pic? he’s just so unforgettable.. so far, he’s the only person who was really nice to me and cared about me even if i wasn’t his girl. really really really different from all of the boys that i know these days. why? they don’t care about you if you’re not their girl. as soon as u’re official, aaaaakh lagaknya kyk yg paling care! cuih! i assess people’s behavior from the very start!
back to the topic. i don’t dare to talk even a single word to him anymore. he got me wrong. i want to explain but… you know.. i’m a coward. i don’t want him to be my boy. i just want him to be my friend again. like what we used to be. but i bet he won’t even remember that we used to be friends. *sigh*
if you read this, you know who you are. and i’m really sorry that i haven’t been able to forget sailormoon. nevermind. i’ve moved on. it’s just that sometimes i hope we can be friends again.
note(s) (ga pake to financial statement): he-who-must-not-be-named who i mentioned on the 1st paragraph isn’t the same as the person who i talked about on the whole topic.
